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#3061 - Wednesday, January 30, 2008 - Editor: Gloria Lee  

Nondual Art is the newest, and a most welcome addition to the yahoo lists in the nonduality family. Still wonderfully undefined, anyone with an interest in art is invited to join.   

A recent discussion was prompted by an excerpt from a book by John Daido Loori, which was posted by Clay. In it, Loori tells how a workshop in photography challenged him to look more deeply at himself and eventually into Zen.

One of these assignments was a turning point for me. On day four of
the workshop, Minor told us to photograph our essence. "Don't
photograph your personality," he explained. "Try to go deep into the
core of your being. Photograph who you really are."

John Daido Loori, author, artist, Zen Master is the founder and abbot of Zen Mountain Monastery in Mount Tremper, New York. Under Daido Loori’s direction, Zen Mountain Monastery has grown to be one of the leading Zen monasteries in America, widely noted for its unique way of integrating art and Zen practice. Daido Loori is also an award winning photographer and videographer, with dozens of exhibitions to his credit and a successful career in both commercial and art photography.  See current exhibit, The Tao of Water, and other portfolios.  

Excerpted from The Zen of Creativity by John Daido Loori  

Chapter 1

Melting Snow

All the way to heaven

is heaven itself.

In the fall of 1980, after I completed Zen training in Los Angeles
with my teacher, Maezumi Roshi, I came to the East Coast with the
intention of establishing a Zen arts center-a place where Zen training
would be used as the vehicle for studying, enhancing, and cultivating
a creative life.

The Zen Arts Center opened in Mount Tremper in October of 1980. Its
main thrust was the practice of art within a Zen context.

Art had been a passion of mine since I was young, but its deep
connection to my spiritual journey didn't become obvious until much
later. I started photographing when I was ten, and by the time I'd
reached my mid thirties photography had become an important part of my
life. While working as a research scientist, I began teaching
photography part-time at a local college. Spirituality was not in the
picture-at least not overtly. The first time these two areas
overlapped was in the late 1960s when I traveled to Boston from New
York to see a photography exhibit titled "The Sound of One Hand," by
Minor White.

I didn't yet have any sense that art might be a doorway to serious and
transformative spiritual practice, but something more than good
technique drew me to Minor's work. Minor was a "straight
photographer": he didn't manipulate his prints during the developing
process, yet his images transcended their subject. Looking at his
photographs, I felt myself being pulled into another realm of
consciousness. Minor's work pointed to a dynamic way of seeing, a new
way of perceiving.

My life has been the poem I would have writ,

But I could not both live and utter it.

henry david thoreau

One day in 1971 I received a letter from Aperture magazine announcing
a workshop that Minor was giving at the Hotchkiss School in Lakeville,
Connecticut. I took one look at the price and threw the letter in the
garbage. A friend saw me, and she picked it up.

"Isn't this the man you're always talking about?" she asked. I nodded.
"Then why are you throwing the letter away?"

"I don't have the money to pay for it."

"Send it in, John," she said. "Something will come up."

And, miraculously, something did. A month later a tax refund that I
had completely forgotten about arrived in the mail. I sent in my
portfolio, along with my date and place of birth so an astrologer
could determine whether this was an auspicious time for me to do the
retreat. With the acceptance letter I got the workshop's reading list.
It consisted of three books: Carlos Castaneda's A Separate Reality,
Eugen Herrigel's Zen and the Art of Archery, and Richard Boleslavsky's
Acting: The First Six Lessons. Nothing on photography. What did my
astrological chart or these books have to do with photography? At the
time I was making my living as a physical chemist, and my rational,
highly critical mind did not take well to these requests. But I really
wanted to study with Minor, so I went along with what he asked.

When I arrived at the Hotchkiss School I saw that there were sixty
participants, ranging in age from eighteen to seventy. Minor greeted
us as we arrived. He was a striking figure, well over six feet tall,
with a flowing mane of white hair. He moved quietly, gracefully, and
when he entered a space, he filled it completely.

This oceanic feeling of wonder is the

common source of religious mysticism, of

pure science and art for art's sake.

arthur koestler

The first full day of the workshop began at four in the morning. The
sound of a bass drum moving down the hallway arrived without warning.
It was pitch black outside. How are we going to photograph in the
dark? I wondered. Drowsily, I dressed and filed outside with the
others. We gathered on a grassy field and a modern dancer began to
lead us through a series of exercises. Everyone was participating,
including Minor.

I turned to the man next to me. "Why are we doing this? What does this
have to do with photography?"

"Ssshhhhh. Just do it," he said.

I had paid hundreds of dollars to study photography with Minor, and I
wasn't about to spend the week undulating in the dark! Furious, I
stormed away.

Back in my room, I started to pack my things. Dawn was breaking, and
the line of dancers caught my eye as I passed the window. They were
spread across the length of the field. I took the camera, screwed on a
telephoto lens, and began to shoot, feeling very pleased with myself.
They can do whatever they want. I'm going to photograph. That thought
perfectly summarized where I was at that time in my life: standing
apart, looking at the world through a lens, like a voyeur.

After the morning session, a group of students led by the dance
instructor came to my room to convince me to stay. "You're not giving
it a chance," they said. "You're copping out." I could have defended
myself, but I was moved by the fact that they even cared whether I
stayed or left. And deep down I knew that I couldn't just walk away. I
wanted so badly to learn to see the way Minor did, to photograph my
subjects in a way that didn't render them lifeless and two-dimensional.

As the days unfolded I woke up before dawn, meditated, and danced with
everyone else. We attended lectures and did various exercises. We
didn't even touch our cameras for the first day or two. Then Minor
began to challenge us with different questions that dealt with our way
of seeing ourselves and the universe, questions that needed to be
resolved visually.

One of these assignments was a turning point for me. On day four of
the workshop, Minor told us to photograph our essence. "Don't
photograph your personality," he explained. "Try to go deep into the
core of your being. Photograph who you really are."

Who I really am? I was absorbed in this question as I walked outside
and sat in the field underneath a sprawling oak. I suddenly started
sobbing. I couldn't stop, and I had no idea why. Somehow, that seemed
terribly funny, and I began to laugh. I kept laughing until I was
exhausted. Who am I? That question repeated itself over and over in my

Back in my room, I packed my 4 5 camera and a small backpack,
prepared to stay out overnight in order to resolve this question. I
set off for the nearby forest and began wandering. Minor's
instructions echoed in my mind: Venture into the landscape without
expectations. Let your subject find you. When you approach it, you
will feel resonance, a sense of recognition. If, when you move away,
the resonance fades, or if it gets stronger as you approach, you'll
know you have found your subject. Sit with your subject and wait for
your presence to be acknowledged. Don't try to make a photograph, but
let your intuition indicate the right moment to release the shutter.
If, after you've made an exposure, you feel a sense of completion, bow
and let go of the subject and your connection to it. Otherwise,
continue photographing until you feel the process is complete.

The state of mind of the photographer while

creating is a blank. . . . [but] It is a very active state of mind
really, a very receptive state of mind, ready

at an instant to grasp an image, yet with no image pre-formed in it at
any time.

minor white

Minor's language was foreign to me. I had no idea what this resonance
was supposed to feel like, or how I would recognize when my subject
acknowledged me. I didn't know if I could feel a sense of completion,
or what I was supposed to do to "let go." Yet, surprisingly, I was
willing to trust Minor, and the process. Somehow, I intuited that I
could do what he had asked. More importantly, I knew that I had to do
it in order to answer the question.

Around noon I came to a beautiful gully and decided to rest. I built a
small fire, leaned against a rock, and was eating my lunch when I
sensed someone's presence nearby. I looked up and saw the elegant
figure of a man standing at the top of the ridge, the sun glowing
behind him. He climbed down the rocks toward me, and I recognized
John, a modern dancer and one of Minor's senior students. I had been
impressed with John since the beginning of the retreat. He would often
photograph as he danced, leaping and turning in the air with a
Polaroid camera in his hand. Like Minor's work, John's photos made me
realize that there were other ways to photograph, other ways to see that were not so rational or linear.

I invited John to join me and offered him a cup of tea. As soon as he
sat down, I started jabbering about anything and everything. In the
middle of my rant he abruptly whispered, "Listen! Listen!" In the
silence I heard a faint tinkling. Intrigued, I picked up my camera and
headed off toward the sound, leaving John behind. I soon found myself
in thick, dark woods. A brook trickled through the mossy rocks. Light
streamed through the trees; bright reflections danced on the water in
the surrounding darkness. Enchanted by the scene, I stayed by the
brook for an hour or more, completing several photographs in a slow,
methodical, almost meditative way.

When I returned to the gully John was gone, and there was no sign of
him ever having been there. The cup of tea I had offered him was still
in my knapsack, completely clean. There were no crumbs on the ground,
no traces of him anywhere. It was as if our meeting had never
happened-in fact, I wasn't sure that it had.

I packed up and continued my wandering. As the sun passed the zenith
and began its descent across the sky, the light that filtered through
the canopy of trees became softer and warmer. None of the photographs
I had taken so far seemed to touch the essence toward which Minor had
pointed me.

Again, I heard Minor's voice in my head. Photograph who you really
are. I was looking at the ground, navigating over big roots with the
heavy camera on my shoulder. I looked up and saw a tree standing a few
feet away and off to my right which riveted my attention. It was an
ancient hardwood with a gnarled trunk. Something about the way the
light spilled over it drew me nearer. I approached it, bowed, set up
my camera, and sat down on the ground next to the tripod, waiting for
my presence to be acknowledged. I sat as still and quietly as I could,
with my hand on the shutter release. Briefly, I wondered how I was
supposed to know when to make the exposure. That's the last thing I

Hours later, I realized I was shivering. The sun had set behind the
mountains and the afternoon had turned cold. Somehow, time had
vanished for me. I slowly rose, aware that something deep inside me
had shifted. The questions I had been struggling with during the
workshop-all of my life, for that matter-had melted away. I felt
buoyant and joyful. The world was right; I was right. I didn't even
know whether I had taken a photograph of the old tree, but at that
point it didn't really matter.

I headed back to the school, for an appointment I had with Minor to
discuss my work. He was sitting on the porch outside his room, waiting
for me. Settling next to him, the list of questions I had prepared
earlier in the week no longer seemed relevant.

He looked at me and said, "You had a good day, didn't you?" I smiled,
and he smiled, too.

"What would you like to talk about?" he asked.

"Honestly," I said, "I don't have anything to say."

"Good," he replied. "Then let's just sit here together."

The days that followed deepened my appreciation for Minor and his
teachings. Something had opened in me, and the techniques and
activities of the workshop started to make sense. Minor was guiding us
to go beyond simply seeing images. He was inviting us to feel, smell,
and taste them. He was teaching us how to be photography.

As I was leaving, I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude for
Minor's teaching that I didn't know how to requite. When I said this
to Minor, he simply said, "You're a teacher, right?" I nodded. "Well,
then teach."

For a while this is what I did. I was very productive at first. I was
seeing and photographing in a new way, and the workshops I taught
around the country reflected a deeper understanding of myself as a
photographer. But as the months passed, this new way of seeing and the
feeling of peace that accompanied it receded, and my feelings of
wholeness and well-being began to fade.

I tried to regain my balance by re-creating everything we had done
during Minor's workshop. I read books on religion, spirituality, and
philosophy. I stood on my head, ate vegetarian food, and meditated. I
listened to the music that Minor had played for us. I kept coming back
to the questions: What had allowed the world to disappear so
completely when I sat in front of the tree? Why did everything feel so
right after that? Why did I feel at peace? And how did everything
become cloudy again?

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead

where there is no path and leave a trail.

ralph waldo emerson

I then set out on a crooked path to find the answers to these
questions, not knowing that this path would lead me to the mystical
tradition of Zen and a new way of understanding art. But the first
step on this path was to see if Minor could help me to make sense of
what I was going through, so that's where I started. Feeling a little
nervous, I gave him a call. Without hesitation, without even asking me
for a reason or even pausing to think it over, Minor responded.
"Come," he said generously, "we can have dinner and talk."

Minor's large two-story house in Cambridge was meticulously clean and
sparsely furnished. It was sectioned into dormitories and studios for
Minor's apprentices, including a state-of-the-art darkroom facility
equipped for archival printing and framing. Minor divided his time
between teaching photography at MIT and maintaining this
apprenticeship program, reminiscent of the traditional way in which
artists and artisans learned art from a master. The training was
rigorous and experiential, an extension of what I had encountered at
the workshop.

From the Hardcover edition.

Excerpted from The Zen of Creativity by John Daido Loori Copyright 2004 by John Daido Loori.

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