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Highlights #310

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Imagine the idea that the ego never actually fully separated
from God.
Imagine you are not bad for the thoughts you think.
Imagine not condemming yourself for ANY thought you have
EVER thought.


Isn't real success when we have no notion of success left -
as if there could be something that was 'not-success'.

Nondualism knows of no opposite.

And whilst we think the opposites are real we will feel the
need for techniques.

There is nowhere to go.

And until you get there use all the techniques you like.
'You' are the problem.


There is no difference whatsoever between the one who is
seeking and that which is being sought.
Therefore, the perceived difference is the result of a
belief that such a difference could exist.
The belief that one lacks, that one is insufficient, arises
from interpretation of experience, particularly experiences
of vulnerability.

Only when one does not attempt to deny vulnerability, nor
flee limitation, nor attach to security, nor eliminate all
threats to vulnerability, will one be able to "undo" the
inferences that led to the belief in oneself as lacking, as
needing something from "outside", as being threatened from
Undoing inferences and beliefs is the Way, not developing
new, improved inferences and beliefs. Such beliefs are
related to self-image, interpretations resulting from
(sometimes dire) bodily experience, images generated from
social interaction -- all of these "cement" the position of
the insecure and threatened self. Projection is the result
of inference, and inference is the result of solidifying a
No inference, no solidification of position = undoing.


Sitting quietly in meditative communion I assume no
difficulty in conveying or understanding; I am that which

Sitting quietly, the language barrier is resolved.


As I have said before I am not enlightened. There is no
reality in darkness, it is only the absence of light. For me
it also seems to be a gradual process.

I am not here to try to bring about someone else's
enlightenment. I am not here as a guru or teacher. IMO the
most important activity or non activity is to bring about my
enlightenment first. It would then put this body in a much
more powerful position to help others. My concern is the
unenlightened being who tries to change another may do more
harm than good.

My technique: to bring about peace within by trying not to
attack others and forgive others that appear to have
attacked me. To practice truth or honesty both within
myself and with others. To treat everything as sacred and
avoid profane language. To love all I see and see
everything as myself. To avoid attachment to anything
within or without. To spend long periods in silence where
some internal transformation seems to occur.

NEO: I was remembering the attack-fear-anger-attack cycle
which we see here everyday. I had forgotten that an attack
is a call for love. Thank you for reminding me. I just do
not think I have that much love to meet the needs of the
list right now, perhaps you do, or perhaps if we all
combined our love it would meet the needs of the list.

XAN: This is the stupidest of the many things you have said.
You think that love is dolled out in limited quanities
depending on the time and the person? Love is a substance,
and so can be subtracted from, added to by someone else's
love quota?
So you are content with your meager amounts of love? At
least you were honest enough to admit you are not the
all-loving guy you portrayed yourself as previously. So you
have no desire to uncover the totally and absolutely
unlimited love which you are and all are, even when they are
attacking, denying, hypocriting etc. etc.

Here it is again: Love itself knows no limits, is only
hidden by our beliefs, ideas and false identity. You want
to know what Love really is? Give up all that stuff.


Dear Neo:

Memory: Love is not Work, Love is un-work......or something
like that.
Ludicrous, because I am full of attack, judgement,
pettiness, all kinds of stuff...and then I have a clear
moment.....and I see that stuff for what it is and
isn't...and then a button...and then the merry-go-round I'm up for untrying again.....I know I don't
know anything, except sometimes, and then I find what I did
know, doesn't matter anyway.......and around and around.

Today is a beautiful day. I'm going to struggle out of my
morning fog and watch all the ideas I think I know surface
and marvel at how meaningless they are...and then I'll hold
on to one tight, not even realizing it, and I'll watch
that...and then, maybe, I'll be sitting at the computer and
I'll notice my daughter in the yard kicking a national
geographic globe ball over the raspberry bushes, the dog
following her, his white tipped tail waving in the wind like
sume surrender flag, and I'll see surrender, as she abandons
herself to the ball and the hillside, and I'll get it for a
second, and then i'll hold onto that, and then, and Winnie the Pooh says: and so it goes. Have a
wonderful day, Neo.

Love, Kristi



Everybody, i am having such great fun on this list. i
really enjoy it.
becoming enlightened without even noticing it.


no problem with feelings/nofeelings/thought/trying/untrying
if we do not attach, if we do not feed energy, if we do not
give attention, but instead we let go *gently !*. Of
course, it does not always work this simple, but when we
become aware that we are clinging, then we *gently !* try to
detach until our brain, if ever, understands its own process
and lets go naturally and without effort. That's why we
should not try to hard to understand because this can become
it's own obstacle. We take notice and let go. The brain or
whatever mechanisme it is will do it's job beyond our

Emotions, thoughts, feelings flowing through, so how can one
say, you are this or you are that ? There is no one there.
We are all this and all that but at the same time neither
this nor that. The Truth has no place to stay.

It IS. How else can it be ? Who says so ? No idea. Just
a thought. 2 years ago i was hospitalized with an immense
and almost unbearable pressure in my head. (Of course
everything was examined, nothing was found) I had no force
anymore, it was all gone. I was all skin bones and i
started smoking again like hell. I was not able to take
anything in. Everything was just too much. I had one major
panic attack. But the general feeling was one of being
totally lost and out of control and an immense restlesness
almost beyond imagination. I could not sleep, not even with
many sleeping tablets. It was just impossible due to this
incredible pressure and restlesness. I took oxazepam and
some other pills but nothing was up to it really. But a
message kept popping up in my head over and over again,
louder and louder: LET GO.

Just by typing it, this brings tears to my eyes, because i
know this is A MAJOR ISSUE for me. Isn't it a miracle that
a message is delivered to you in such a mysterious way ?
And i understood it loud and clear. So, little by little,
this pressure diminished until it was bearable. The
restlesness is totally gone. The pressure is still there,
more or less, and it seems to react to awareness, but i am
not really making any link because i simply do not know what
it is. To be continued :) -> who knows, nothing is sure.



I guess my take is the self fears nonexistence, and when one
gets close to taking self off the thrown of "importance",
those survival instincts well up. In fact, I think the self
is the fear, and vice versa. My observations suggest that
the original fear (self) is actually made of love (energy),
which is such a lovely surprise to me that I'm still
exploring it. I wonder what comes next, and that causes
fear (self) to arise again, and the only thing that seems to
dispell it is letting the love bloom again. The fear is
pretty resilient, which I have to respect. It's also a
trickster, with many disguises. I think the true guise is
that love stuff though. I try to say it but it never sounds
quite right. Let someone else say it then....

This short excerpt is from Hilda Charlton at

"Let's say you're in the consciousness of God, and then you
get petty and complain, "That person said this about me."
Whew! You're right out again, out of the Garden of Eden.
So you say, "Oh no. I'm out again."
Nothing doing! Cut! Cut that thought. Cut! And back in
you go, into the consciousness of God, and say, "That person
must've had a bad time to be so mean. I will send that
person unconditional love." It's as simple as that, kids.
We have to keep unconditional love all the time. We may
fall out of the Garden of Eden, but we have to walk back in
fast. As quickly as the negative thought comes, say, "Cut."
Go back with a good thought, and you're in the consciousness
of God again. You're in attunement and you're in safety, no
matter what happens around you. You understand that?"

This is so right on, IMO. The fear steps in and wants to
defend me, and I respond by consciously choosing love and
reminding myself that I don't need protection. I don't mind
the game so much anymore, so it's getting easier. Perhaps
God will grace me soon by taking the last of the fear away.
I'd like that.


Some of Nisargadatta's statements came close to some of the
concepts of ACIM ; He said that the I Am began all the
"mischief" (this universe). "The crime was that this
consciousness started feeling conscious, the mischief
started" (from Prior to Consciousness) This part gets me:
"You are unreal - you know that you are -- that is also
unreal. This sense of presence is an untruth; it is like a
dream." He also said, "All this process of communication,
expounding,etc., will go on so long as this conscious
presence is available, and all this merely to satisfy the
concept "I Am," and you, the Absolute, are not the primary
concept "I Am."

The Course says that to the Son of God "came a tiny mad idea
at which he forgot to laugh". I call this "tiny mad idea"
I Amness. That's the first split from the Source , this
sense of awareness of oneself.

Nisargadatta: This touch of "I Amness" is in each being;
this beingness has that touch of love for the Absolute and
it is a representation of the Absolute. When you got
yourself separated from the Absolute with this identity "I
Am," you felt fragmented, isolated, and that is why your
demands started. In the Absolute there are no needs. Only
the Absolute prevails. ...But this "I Amness" is not just a
small principle, that itself is the mula-maya, the primary
illusion..." (Prior to Consciousness)




"Nothingness brings freedom. Freedom from the self is the
ultimate freedom. There is no freedom higher than that.
Nothingness is freedom. And it is not anguish, as Jean-Paul
Sartre says, and it is not trembling, as Kierkegaard says.
It is benediction, it is the ultimate bliss. It is not
trembling because there is nobody to tremble.

Meditation prepares you for that, because as you enter into
meditation you find less and less of yourself every day. And
the less you find yourself, in the same proportion grow your
blessings, your benediction, your blissfulness. Slowly,
slowly, you learn the mathematics of the inner world - that
the more you are, the more in hell; the less you are, the
more in heaven. The day you are not, it is nirvana. The
ultimate home has arrived. You have come full circle, you
have become a child again. There is not self any more.

Remember, freedom does not mean the freedom "of the self".
Freedom means: freedom "from the self". To Sartre it means
'freedom of the self'. That's why it feels like a
condemnation; the self remains. It becomes free, but it
remains - and that's why there is fear."

MARK: I've been thinking about neo's suggestion that trying
to teach about enlightenment before achieving it can do more
harm than good.

JAN B:That's why the Buddha, at the end of his "career",
said "be a light onto yourself". Man's real nature can be
recognized unconditionally and realization (no "I") can be a
matter of pure love. No more knowledge required... let
alone reasoning and arguing...

MARK: I wonder if a reasonable analogy is trying to raise
children before becoming completely adult?

JAN B: Rosicrucians are rather specific about it: no greater
joy (for the newborn too) than growing up with awakened
parents. The Buddha gave the wording "when nirvana with
substratum is realized, one has the choice to rejoice one's

MARK: I don't have children, at least partly because I
haven't felt adult enough to take on that responsibility.
When is someone sufficiently adult to try to teach children
about becoming adults?

JAN B:Awakening is like having reserved a ticket to lasting
happiness. Only this qualifies to teach and to raise


jody, it is PAST. Why do you keep dragging it along with

love xan

Because I'm a lousy sonofabitch that has to have the last

(editor's note: actually, jody, it's the sponsor...)

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